After a little online research and self-diagnosing, and maybe a rain dance or two, I think Harrison is in a coma. I'm going to try and reset the pram and pmu, and maybe that'll work, but my guess is the logic board has failed. Well. That's going to be $400-$500... just for the board. Fantastic.

So... I feel guilty, but maybe it's time to start looking for a replacement. Harrison II. Harrison Jr. Little Harry. The possiblities for names are endless... the possibilities for paying for it are a little limited.

Hmm. Maybe I can use my new soap making skills to fundraise. You all want to buy my clumsily made, experimental - I mean, awesome and artisan soap, right?

If I take on too many more projects (whether real or imagined) I'm going to explode. (or implode).

A 73-year-old grandfather who scooped £25m in one of Britain's biggest lottery wins will not let the prize go to his head, he has said.

Brian Caswell and his wife Joan, 71, from Bolton, were joint winners of the Euromillions lottery jackpot.

Speaking on Tuesday, Mr Caswell said the cash would pay for a "flash car" and a trip to Rio, Brazil.

And the keen gardener said he would also hire a professional to help grow some carrots on his allotment.

A member of his local allotment society in Bolton, Mr Caswell said he had been trying to grow the vegetables on his patch of land "without success".

"I've followed every instruction in the book and never had any success," he said.

"What I'm going to do now is bring a professional in and say, right, sort that out."



I love him.

I passed my Technician license exam! Also, I fell/passed out on a sidewalk tonight! Whooo! And I miss someone and wish a lot of things! yeaaaaah!!

When my current life situation sucks I tend to do some intense daydreaming. Usually, this is daydreaming fortified by research. Today?
Today is daydreaming about great wedding locations. I've been looking at the Woodland Park Zoo (Say I do at the Zoo!) and the Seattle Aquarium - one of the great things about the aquarium is that they do everything for you - the space, the bar, the chairs, the linen, everything but the cake, essentially, and they will cut/serve that for you with no additional charge -- but the bad thing about the aquarium is that it's $135/person, at a 130 person minimum.

On the other hand, how easy to write one check and not have to worry about too much more! And the fish! You can pet the anenomes in the tide pool with a glass of champagne in your hand. That sounds pretty great to me.

The zoo has some great stuff too, though, but I think my affinity runs closer to the aquarium. I don't want to get married near an elephant.

Guided visual meditation is probably not the thing for me. I tried to engage on the way home - granted, I was on a bus, so not the most relaxing place - but still, it did not end well. I've been doing some relaxation stuff that I'd downloaded onto my ipod, but this was the first time I'd really tried this one.

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I'm learning how to breathe again. I practiced some pranayama in bed last night - deep alternating breaths, with 3-step full breaths, until I fell asleep. I felt a peace I haven't in a long while. Since turning 25 last week I've had sort of a split attitude toward my current life status. On one hand I feel blessed, whole in ways I haven't felt before - not necessarily fulfilled or 'arrived', but ready and willing and committed to finding something that does make me that way. More stable and ready to take on new challenges and grow. I'm not afraid of as many things, and I feel ready to look at my life, find ways to make it better, and take action.

On the other hand, there's a few serious holes in my life that I can glaze over most of the time, but when I stop to think about it... or sometimes, like how you catch your reflection in the mirror and it startles you - it catches me off guard and I have to remind myself to take a breath while fighting back tears. It's a serious ache, a deep and horrible longing, and it makes me feel alone when I shouldn't. So. There's that.

But mostly, things are good. I am loved, and I have people to love. And that's really what life should be about.

I do not, as far as I am aware, have swine flu.

and sunny! and boozey! and funny! and I am going boogie boarding now!